Lost my way in dreams !!!

For the past few days I have been having dreams…I know it is not unusual for one to dream but then in my case it has been after a span of 3 decades. In most of my recent dreams generally I am lost and I seem to be searching for something or someplace and I am loss of words as to why I get these dreams and that too now. The latest dream was that I have been trying to get back to the place where I have parked my car at a shopping mall and each time I took a path back I seem to reach back to the same place where I had started and I think I dreamt of taking a very long time to locate my car. It is said that dreams could have a definite meaning and I am trying to decipher the meaning of my dreams with the present context. 

Am I lost by taking the wrong turn in the cross roads of my life??  Well in my perspective as a committed parent the path selected by me was the right one though it does not elicit the same fervor it did some time back. Maybe it is because I am growing older and would like to anchor down at home port or is it the male menopause that setting in and I am not so sure!!! J. The initial euphoria of the return back to the same company and the project has waned and there is a definite change in me and my attitude and the normal happy go lucky guy character in me surfaces only sometimes these days. I really need to analyze the feeling and the dreams now especially that I am staying alone in a far of land away from my family. 

I have started asking the very question that I had written about quite some back " Why is it always me " and why is it happening to me. I sure need to introspect and come to terms with whatever be the reasons for I need to be here for some more time and earn moolah…petro dollars since I have a huge commitments to be taken care off. Once that is done I can take semi retirement …I sure liked the sabbatical break of 6 months I had when life was quite relaxing except for the thoughts of diminishing savings.

Amazing Beaches of Oman - Qantab Beach

This Friday morning I and my colleagues went to picturesque Qantab beach and a rocky coastline quite early in the morning to avoid the heat later in the day. This beach is quite scenic and has rocky coastline that has been eroded by sea water for ages and is quite amazing to look at .Some scenes in the Tamil movie Kandasamy was shot here extensively and I believe including a song sequence. 

Boat ride in a similar boat..see the wooden slats as seats

Reaching the beach around 7.30 am stopped at the tea shop for the tea and there we met a middle aged boat driver by name Hammis Mashri, who said that he would take us around for a trip on his motor boat right till Barr Al Jissah for RO 15. At first I was hesitant to take the trip because of the fear of the deep blue sea but then his statements that he would not be speeding and rushing like most of the teenage boatmen there and that he is a licensed boatman won over my fear and we set out on a brief ride. 

Boatman Hammis and Rahul who made the boatman accelerate

All was fine initially when he going slow and once he crossed the rocky mountain across the bay he accelerated the motor boat…the boat was jumping across the troughs in the deep waters really spilled my guts….it was quite scary with no hold on the boat each time the boat flies up and then comes down. We guys were literally holding on to the side and shouting to the boatman to slow down. He in turn was asking a friend who was facing him..Enta kof?? Meaning is “are you frightened”…and in the event my friend answers no, then he would accelerate even more. 

Natural opening in the rocky mountain jutting up in middle of the bay

Well our round motor boat trip right up to Shangri-La resort bay then on to Oman Diving club and back to the Qantab beach after having stopped for few photographs of the rocky mountain with a tunnel at the waterline finished and  all of us were thanking our stars to be back on ground safely. Thinking back about the boat trip..well it is quite risky for the following reason…no life jackets being provided by the boatmen, no proper seats…you are sitting on wooden slats place across the width of the boat, no holding points on the motor boat in the event the boat hits a large trough or wave when the boat rises up and slams down, . By the way we did see some boats with proper seats, holding rod and so forth but looks like they are more expensive and is suitable for larger groups of people.

Scenic view of the Qantab bay

The trip concluded at 8.30 am and from there for breakfast at the new Vasantha Bhavan at Ghala then straight back to the air conditioned confines of the home even before the day became hot!!! Another weekend is over here and a new resolution by me...not to travel in these speed boats again !!! Only proper powerboats that we saw moored in the Oman diving center henceforth.

Till death do us part !!!!

Warning… a personal post and would be boring to most readers

6^th June 2012 was the start of my 30^th year of married life …(am patting my own back)  24 hours/7..365 day x 29 years is a very long time indeed and you would not believe it that I did send my wife a message over mobile thanking her for having kuppai kotifying with me for so long( surely not a romantic message I know)….you must be wondering if it is a foreign language, well it is a phrase in Tamil which means putting up with garbage and I the response I got from her was that she was overwhelmed by my message and she felt that it was the other way around. This surely seems like the short story “The gift of Magi” that I studied during my higher secondary..each one trying to outdo the other by sacrificing the item most important to them. A nice feeling indeed and it is quite hard to describe the same.Only regret is that we are miles apart..me in Oman and she at Chennai !

During the last 29 years both of us have had myriad experiences that has been quite difficult at times and I thankful that my wife Revathi stood by me. I have not been a perfect husband for sure and that is what I meant in my message to her on the eve of the anniversary. There were few difficult times when I can tell with certainty that both of us have considered that it is difficult to continue together and yet  we have forged ahead and the reason attributed to this that one us would stop arguing and thereby deflating the heated discussions . I know life is not a bed of roses and all couples have problems in their lives but then one partner needs to let go of his/hers ego for continuing relationship. My parents were together for 54 years till such time my mother departed in 2010 and it has been an inspiration to me …their life experiences did help me to overcome few difficulties in our lives. These days we tend to read that divorce rates have gone back because of the lack of compatibility and the main culprit is arguments …neither one of the partner are willing to back down..a question of ego I would say with my limited knowledge.

Thank you Revathi for a lively experience during the last 29 years and I pray that we continue like this for a long time ahead, till we are able to see our young daughters well settled in life.