Rant of the day …It has nothing to
do with anyone but me... !!!!
Been a silent spectator in the blog
sphere for quite a long time for it has been ages since I wrote any post. All I
used to do was to upload few photographs and that is it! Been trying to
introspect myself as to why I hardly get the urge to write these days. May be
it is the stress that is prevailing in my life at this point of time ….not
being too happy with the kind of job I do, health issues and coupled with the
fact that I am alone in a distant land having to fend for myself …cooking, dish
washing and so forth. So what do I do in the evenings or the weekends when I
have sufficient free time…nothing worthwhile at all except that read books in
snatches of few pages at a time. During one such moments while reading a book
by Eric Van Lustbader I came across this “What else is life but a dance of
choice” and it struck a chord in me for this is how life is for each one of
us... choice does define the way you are
leading your life.
I do keep venting out my
frustrations every couple of months like a pressure cooker and resign to the
fact that I made the choice of being alone due to the commitments and for few
days I feel revitalized but then go back into the shell again. I need to set
aside the feelings of remorse of having made the choice that defines my present
life and make hard choices that would change my life for better. I am not young
that I can just dump the assignment and move back to India and be sure that I
can pick up another job in a jiffy… at the age of 55 it does make difference
since most employers are not looking for people in this range !!!
Real predicament isn’t it!!! Well
need to cross this hurdle too ASAP as it is telling on my performance at the
current position.I really need to find the right path now and not at the end !!! :)
